IMAGINARY CLOSENESS

Back when I was in Las Vegas, our internet connection there was 24/7. No buffering even. It was very conducive to check unstoppably those with Friendster. That was the time I started to get amazed of this selected people who are in the peaks of their careers. It was from that time that i would repeatedly check their friendster accounts, read the comments coming from their friends and colleagues, check who they just accepted and if they posted new pictures. Yes, i did that repeatedly! Some noticed my constant visit to their accounts and so they invited me to be included in the list of their friendster pals (did they or it was I?!)

Never or maybe after quite some time I messaged them. That was when I got to wonder already how is it to be their friends even just through friendster. I admit that my fondness of them is because i would want to be in their shoes or become them in the future. What made me so into them are the lovestories of their lives. They are the unusual plots we dont see on our boobtubes that is why i made myself hooked into knowing them just by the their friendsters-through their pics (who they are always with& those who are featured in their accounts), comments (reading between the lines) and to whom they are connected with.

When i got back to Philippines wherein no internet connection is available at my lolo's place where we stayed, I have been wanting to meet them personally but the opportunity didnt allow me to. Plus the fact that we are not acquainted (read as WE ARE STILL STRANGERS TO EACH OTHER). I have convinced myself that it is enough that they have made my boring life in Vegas a worthwhile one and it should just stop there or else i would end up having the image of someone worthy to laugh about because of mushiness.

Now that im in New Zealand,having the internet access 24/7, I again did my routine of checking those who I consider my favorites in Friendster. With the 3weeks of not regularly checking friendster because i was in the Philippines, many developments have occured to my favorite group of people. One of my super favorite broke up with the love of his life (which i tought is a relationship that would last forever). I have read the comments in his account and many tried comforting him. One comment that blew me is a comment from his bestfriend which if I was the one brokenhearted, that comment would surely uplift me in more ways than one. The brokenhearted guy now that he is not that preoccupied had the chance to notice me. Although i dont know what really happened between the two parties which led to their parting ways, my side is to this person who just noticed me because i apparently checked the account of his former special one and to my surprise, the person is with a new love already ( based from the new pictures,of course!) . Did you know that upon seeing the pics of the EX with the new love made me feel so broken (huh?!) that a partnership i used to idolized and looked up to ended this way? Wishing i was there to help save their relationship...

TWIST: SOMEONE WHO USED TO BE CLOSE TO ME IS THE BADMINTON PAL OF THE EX- the reason I knew about the affair.